Updated: Mar 23
I want to be that mom...
I am taking a little break from day two of water park fun to write this post.
The water park really has been a blast! I love zipping down water slides especially when I'm in a tube with one of my girls. We scream at the top of our lungs!! To make it even better, we have gotten to enjoy the water park as a family with some of our favorite people in the world.
And yet I feel a little (or a lot - it varies moment to moment) uncomfortable. So why in the world is there even the slightest part of me that feels uncomfortable right now??? Well ... I'm in a water park. I'm in my bathing suit. And although I believe that I am a beautiful person, that I am worthy of the space I am in, that creating wonderful memories is far more important than how I look in a bathing suit, or for that matter how I feel I look in a bathing suit; I have still felt this uncomfortable feeling.
So I began looking around the water park at the other women. I was wondering "Are they worried about what they look like in their bathing suits? Are any of them feeling even the slightest bit uncomfortable?"
And as I look around I see so many women of all shapes and sizes, and many of them look at least slightly uncomfortable. I think this because when we as women don't feel comfortable in our own skin, we tend to fidget and I see quite a bit of fidgeting.
I also see women who aren't fidgeting at all. Women who are playing, smiling, walking, sitting at ease in their own skin. That's how I want to be. I want to be free to Notice my own goodness and the goodness of each sweet person in my family. I want to be free to enjoy the moments and lock in the memories without focusing on the things I find imperfect. I don't wanna be fidgeting, I want to be free! I want to be that mom.
I feel compelled to write this post right now. Maybe because I need to document my awareness of this whole situation, and maybe it will give a new perspective to those who follow this page.
I want to be that mom. So I am going to commit myself to focusing on Noticing goodness and being present. I am going to monitor my thoughts, edit and replace them when necessary with good ones. And I'm going to keep posts from positive pages like Love Your Body Project: Peace, Love and Food at the top of my feed.
Why is it so important to me to be that mom you might ask? Well, I have these beautiful young daughters watching me to see how I act, how I feel, what I say. I want to be that mom who shows them that they can and should be confident. After all, fidgeting didn't even look good on Julia Roberts.